transformation!

no one should doubt their abilities.
"failing?" don't worry. it's called learning. just don't repeat a mistake.
remember, every guru started off as an apprentice.
one simply is not born perfect.
we all have to work hard to get to the culminating point of our lives.
then, we continue to push and improve.
don't like the status quo? change yourself first. improve.
when you don't think you're improving, take your time.
know that someone loves you. if you can't believe that, then love yourself even more.
don't become a narcissist though :)
that won't help anything...
bad emotions are okay. know that and don't bottle them in when you don't need to.
I remember when there was a time when I was sad for no apparent reason...
don't do that to yourself.
you don't deserve to feel that way.
I felt like I was drowning under everything.
without life, there's no hope.
surround yourself with love.
find your own life.
believe in yourself.
(cliché isn't always bad. there's a reason why it caught on.)
then you can resume on your path. 
or maybe you don't have a clear path.
don't worry. you'll find one.
knowing that you're not the best is good.
that means that you know where you need to improve.
take time off to relax. never underestimate relaxation.
look outside. wander outside. explore.
soon enough, you'll slowly start to become who you wanted to be at first.
unless you changed. that's okay.
dream on, imagine. have a world to yourself.
don't just survive. don't just live. THRIVE with style.

I'm just me.
I squeeze into a sequined dress.

I am a star.

I peel off the shining dress,

Into a ragged shirt and pants I struggle.

I am now a slave.

I am a slave.

I peel off my ragged cloth,

Into a pair of wings of feathers I fly.

I am now a bird.

I am a bird.

I peel off my feathers,

Into glistening scales and fins I swim.

I am now a fish.

I am a fish.

I peel off my slipping water skin.

Into a shell I hide.

I am now a turtle.

But who am I?

Truly, really, who am I?

Anything,

Anything I want.

You can be anything you want. Strive towards a goal.
You can make a blog.
You can definitely get a higher vertical jump.
You can definitely draw a life sized picture of your cat.
You can do well on your finals and exceed your goals. 
You will be able to dunk on the 10 ft by next year at the latest. 
Who knows? 
Goals range from the smallest things to the craziest ideas. 

Change the goal to suit your needs and personality.
Work hard and you will get to it.
 

Transform. It's not always bad to try to fit in.

It's the same thing as putting yourself into someone else's shoes, isn't it?

Then again, don't erase yourself and make yourself a permanent pawn of another greater entity.

thoughts and rants #1: elements

So recently we had an English assignment which asked us which natural element we think we embody the most. I was excited because I had thought of it before. However, after the essay,  I never really stopped thinking about it. The more I think about it, the more I think of myself as water... Water can be calm and yielding at times, fitting in each mold it is poured into, flowing through whichever path has already been planned out. However, when it has its own opinion, it can become as forceful as the ocean. I'm sure you guys have heard of the water engravers or whatever they're called :)

I find that I can change easily from one personality to another, such as going from composed to hyper with my friends, much like how water can pour into one shape or another without breaking like earth. Within different groups of friends, I act in different ways. Even though it seems as if I am bending myself to fit in, the truth is that these personalities are just extensions of myself.

Water also takes time to warm up or cool down, and for me, a certain amount of time must pass for me to get used to a certain situation. For example, whenever I make a new friend in unfamiliar surroundings, I assess everyone before settling down to talk to one person. It takes a longer time for me to relax and talk to a stranger compared to other people.

Even though I can sometimes be quite active like fire, I'm not quick to change my mood, or at least I don't really show it much... It takes a lot to anger me or make me protest. Sometimes, it makes me seem kind of cold or detached like ice... but those who really know me know whether I'm actually really into something or not. For example, last year, I went on an exchange program to Japan. When it was time to leave, I was sad. Truly sad. Yet, somehow, I just couldn't cry... It felt so strange. My buddy and her friends were crying, yet I could only manage a sad face... It's also kind of strange. When I'm annoyed, I don't really show it until I just can't stand it anymore.
Anger is associated with heat, right? Yeah, strangely enough, it's the one emotion that comes out easiest through this "ice." When I'm angry, I tend to get really quiet and TRULY cold (haha and anger is supposed to be hot) to the poor victim (sorry :P).

Rivers may seem transparent at times like air, but the truth is that once someone jumps in, it is usually deeper than it seems. I have many thoughts that I don't to share with others, while air rushes and speaks before thinking. It's not that I don't trust them, it's just that I don't want to :P This also can link back to the previous statement :)

One more thing is that water picks up each and every little thing in its path, like a leaf or a grain of sand. If I'm interested in something, there's no stopping me from exploring more in depth, and usually I go further than other people in exploring the topic.

So, that's definitely enough talk about me :)... How about you?

inspiration!

I'm so glad that my friends are creating blogs now more than ever! Just comment below the url of your blog and I'll promote it if you want me to <3

Good Night

The thrill of keeping a blog is overwhelming :) So, last post for today... Good night from California!

Night Flower

A rosy dusk fades as the smallest golden orb sinks.

A silver pearl pirouettes into the sky

And scatters its fine glimmering powder

Over the deep velvet petals of the night.

Clouds of mist brush dewdrops on its leaves

Refreshing and replenishing its luscious silk blossoms.

It blushes and grows through the morning glow,

Bursting into a rosé aurora.

A Big Shout Out!

Thank you to all my friends for slowly building up my confidence and inspiring me daily with their sheer presence. I love all of you, so let's all take a moment and appreciate our friends and loved ones. Another special shout out to Jasmine for being such a wonderful supporter of dewdrops and being the person I wasn't afraid to reach out to and Grace for her continuous support all the time, no matter what I did. It's easy to forget those who continuously support you and I want you to know that even if I don't acknowledge you or tell you it's not that I forgot, but I know that you will understand and I'm trying to reach out to more people. Alisa, I know I've known you only for a really short time compared to other friends but you are such a wonderful inspiration and presence both in ballet and in general :) Thank you so much for coming here. Let's make it an awesome performance on Saturday. Wow, I keep having to add people :) If you aren't mentioned, don't feel offended... But thank you Amla for always being such a wonderful friend. The weirdest things are brought up yet no one here ever complains. There are so many strange inside jokes we have... Never forget that you beans are so special to me and I will never EVER forget you. ❀✿❀

wow...

This is the first time I'm actually giving a piece of my work to a possible big crowd... anyway, give me tips, feedback, and please, maybe just a little bit of encouragement? thanks a million, my fellow beans :)

Moon Reflection

The moon dips into the quivering pond,

Sending ripples out near the leafy fronds,

Yet I see the moon in the sky,

As usual, so bright and luminous yet shy,

Hiding behind a cloud now,

Coming out to take a peek.

The moon sees her own reflection,

And stares at her silver complexion.

Welcome!

Hello, my lovely beans! Welcome to my blog. Sit back, relax, grab a milk tea, and stare at your screen. Just don't do that for too long, please. Go enjoy the world around you, too. Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ